Erm, gee thanks....

Just reading my maternity notes from last scan.....

Father's Day.....

It's so weird to think this time next year, The Bear and I will have a seven month old boy or girl!

6 +1 - halfway through 1st trimester

Baby Boomers variety of daffodil - fantastic name!

I've made it to my sixth week and am still nervous, but a little less so.

Updates so far: I have an early scan booked for 24th March when I'm 8 +2 and my booking appointment for the 2nd April! I should be 9 +4 by then....it seems like ages away....I hope beanie makes it 

Emotions: becoming more excited and less nervous. The nerves come back in waves

Main thoughts: 'Is beanie sticking? ' 'have people worked it out?'

Physical symptoms: waking up hungry, swollen / full heavy boobs. Still no nausea, so I suppose that's a good thing? Had a crazy amount of energy yesterday. Stoll waking up in early hours of morning.

Halfway through my first trimester....

I really want to enjoy this, but my anxiety levels keep creeping up, which i know is no good for me and beanie. The Bear is very comforting, tells me to remain positive and take a day at a time....each day is sooooo long haha!

The girls on babycentre are great at cheering everyone up and on...if any of you are reading 'thanks!' xx

Any tips for relaxing would be great if you've got 'em!

Yours ,

somewhat neurotic from London x

Photos: HPTs @ 10 & 11 dpo....

The Bear is still in a state of shock - which is silly seeing as we've been ttc! Yesterday he was full of "wow" every five minutes, then announced he was having a nap! Knackered already haha! He's also worried I'm getting my hopes up. So has basically ordered asked me to hold off until I'm due on to test again!

I know he has a point....

But I ignored him anyway!


To be honest, I'll probably test daily until af due date, then take a digi if I keep getting lines. if the lines are going to disappear, I'd rather know sooner than on af day...


Here are my Morrisons HPTs taken with fmu sample at 10dpo (yesterday) and 11(dpo) today. Line came up within five very faintly, then clearer within ten minutes.


My phone is pants, the lines are much stronger to naked eye than they appear in the photos.


Please , please let this be true......

I am so scared this will be snatched away from me I swing between joyful, shocked and apprehensive.

Time will tell.....

top is 10dpo bottom is 11dpo. Photo taken within five minutes of test.

Top casing removed to view lines easier. Top test - 10dpo, bottom test 11 dpo

plastic screen removed for easier viewing. photo within an hour of todays test.

January 2012

This month starts off much better than the last one ended!

The Bear and I have talked. Talked more openly than we have done in ages.