March 2012

This is a milestone month, my first full calender month pregnant, yay!

It's a roller coaster month too. The Bear swings from stunned happiness to just...well, stunned.

I start the month 5 weeks pregnant and end the month 9 weeks, two thirds through the first trimester!

Inbetween there's a dash to hospital, after a check up at GP. I'm told I have multiple fibroids so will be under a consultant. My due date is put back three days.

My bestie The Rock is informed - she's over the moon and planning our mat leave together as she's five weeks ahead of me!

My parents are told - mum is so excited its just wrong!

We're holding off telling The Bears mum...he wants to wait until the scan.

My symptoms get worse then ease up then return again. Its basically extreme tiredness and a dicky tummy and mahoosive boobs.

I buy a new bra


It's a busy month and its awful but i wish time would hurry up.... patience was never my strong point....

boobs, bras & besties...

Can you believe it...what if this half of the species invented the bra(!)

Heading into week seven according to my scan and my boobs are killing me. I wake up in agony and have to cup them when getting out of bed. The feeling is similar to having a large lead weight inserted into them.

The suffering must stop...time for a new bra.

Drama...

Yesterday I had some brown smudging accompanied with some pain.

Brown stains stopped today but the pain continued, so I checked out NHS Direct. NHS Direct said contact your GP.

I called my GP still thinking it wasn't too big a deal and rather than waste an appointment I'll wait for GP to talk on the phone to me.

I spoke with GP and she ordered me in for an examination.

She found a hard lumpy mass on my left abdomen and was quite concerened about it...so was i after she prodded it, man was it sore!

I was given a referral letter and sent straight to A&E Gynaecology, as my GP was worried the hard mass on my left hand side was a possible ectopic, albeit too early and high for one.

I sat in A&E trying not to bawl my eyes out.
Mum came to meet me as OH didn't fancy explaining to his manager (his manager is also known as Satan's right hand man!) and to be honest I thought there'd be no need as by the time he'd get down to the hospital I;d be seen.

Anyway, I was seen very quickly. I had my assessments, question, blood, urine and a rather uncomfortable internal exam all done within an hour and a half. brief wait and then I was scanned....

It was an internal scan and a bit uncomfortable but well worth it!

Beanie was seen in the right place, with heartbeat pulsing as well. I was so relieved!

Consultants also found three large fibroid in my uterus. These are likely to be the culprits of the lumpy mass found by GP. i was told they will grow as blood increases in the area. This means I'll need to be managed for blood loss as there's a risk of hemorrhaging during labour and after birth stage. Other than that their position is not too bad and not blocking entrance to cervix.

Everything else is fine and dandy...ovaries are also a.o.k!

Good day all in all.

Walked away with a scan picture to show OH :)

6 +1 - halfway through 1st trimester

Baby Boomers variety of daffodil - fantastic name!

I've made it to my sixth week and am still nervous, but a little less so.

Updates so far: I have an early scan booked for 24th March when I'm 8 +2 and my booking appointment for the 2nd April! I should be 9 +4 by then....it seems like ages away....I hope beanie makes it 

Emotions: becoming more excited and less nervous. The nerves come back in waves

Main thoughts: 'Is beanie sticking? ' 'have people worked it out?'

Physical symptoms: waking up hungry, swollen / full heavy boobs. Still no nausea, so I suppose that's a good thing? Had a crazy amount of energy yesterday. Stoll waking up in early hours of morning.

Halfway through my first trimester....

I really want to enjoy this, but my anxiety levels keep creeping up, which i know is no good for me and beanie. The Bear is very comforting, tells me to remain positive and take a day at a time....each day is sooooo long haha!

The girls on babycentre are great at cheering everyone up and on...if any of you are reading 'thanks!' xx

Any tips for relaxing would be great if you've got 'em!

Yours ,

somewhat neurotic from London x