March 2012

This is a milestone month, my first full calender month pregnant, yay!

It's a roller coaster month too. The Bear swings from stunned happiness to just...well, stunned.

I start the month 5 weeks pregnant and end the month 9 weeks, two thirds through the first trimester!

Inbetween there's a dash to hospital, after a check up at GP. I'm told I have multiple fibroids so will be under a consultant. My due date is put back three days.

My bestie The Rock is informed - she's over the moon and planning our mat leave together as she's five weeks ahead of me!

My parents are told - mum is so excited its just wrong!

We're holding off telling The Bears mum...he wants to wait until the scan.

My symptoms get worse then ease up then return again. Its basically extreme tiredness and a dicky tummy and mahoosive boobs.

I buy a new bra


It's a busy month and its awful but i wish time would hurry up.... patience was never my strong point....

My first Mothers Day....

boobs, bras & besties...

Can you believe it...what if this half of the species invented the bra(!)

Heading into week seven according to my scan and my boobs are killing me. I wake up in agony and have to cup them when getting out of bed. The feeling is similar to having a large lead weight inserted into them.

The suffering must stop...time for a new bra.

Drama...

Yesterday I had some brown smudging accompanied with some pain.

Brown stains stopped today but the pain continued, so I checked out NHS Direct. NHS Direct said contact your GP.

I called my GP still thinking it wasn't too big a deal and rather than waste an appointment I'll wait for GP to talk on the phone to me.

I spoke with GP and she ordered me in for an examination.

She found a hard lumpy mass on my left abdomen and was quite concerened about it...so was i after she prodded it, man was it sore!

I was given a referral letter and sent straight to A&E Gynaecology, as my GP was worried the hard mass on my left hand side was a possible ectopic, albeit too early and high for one.

I sat in A&E trying not to bawl my eyes out.
Mum came to meet me as OH didn't fancy explaining to his manager (his manager is also known as Satan's right hand man!) and to be honest I thought there'd be no need as by the time he'd get down to the hospital I;d be seen.

Anyway, I was seen very quickly. I had my assessments, question, blood, urine and a rather uncomfortable internal exam all done within an hour and a half. brief wait and then I was scanned....

It was an internal scan and a bit uncomfortable but well worth it!

Beanie was seen in the right place, with heartbeat pulsing as well. I was so relieved!

Consultants also found three large fibroid in my uterus. These are likely to be the culprits of the lumpy mass found by GP. i was told they will grow as blood increases in the area. This means I'll need to be managed for blood loss as there's a risk of hemorrhaging during labour and after birth stage. Other than that their position is not too bad and not blocking entrance to cervix.

Everything else is fine and dandy...ovaries are also a.o.k!

Good day all in all.

Walked away with a scan picture to show OH :)

7 weeks today...

...and boy has it been a roller coaster!

No nausea, but raging hormones. I went ballistic at OH yesterday via text message over something minor, thankfully he didn't respond angrily :)

Boobs have a life of their own...big then smaller but always heavy. I bought a new bra at mothercare - non under wired which I haven't worn since 13!

It takes a bit of getting used to. I was wearing a 34F and now measure 40 DD?! Hmm, methinks I'll get measured at my usual Fenwicks or Bravissimo instead....

Mothercare got us signed up for their Mum and baby club with discounts, the hard sell for pushchairs currently on sale started at check out but we stayed firm!


Everyone at work is doing my head in.

I'm irritable.

I'm tired beyond belief to the point where it's distracting.

I'm constantly worrying, which was not helped by seeing a brown smudge in my pants yesterday morning. it didn't return though so fingers crossed....

I'm bloated ...my boss said "I think you're starting to show" i could have thrown my stapler at him!

Random ranting,so apologies.

All i want is to stop worrying and have baby in my arms.

That is all.

6 +1 - halfway through 1st trimester

Baby Boomers variety of daffodil - fantastic name!

I've made it to my sixth week and am still nervous, but a little less so.

Updates so far: I have an early scan booked for 24th March when I'm 8 +2 and my booking appointment for the 2nd April! I should be 9 +4 by then....it seems like ages away....I hope beanie makes it 

Emotions: becoming more excited and less nervous. The nerves come back in waves

Main thoughts: 'Is beanie sticking? ' 'have people worked it out?'

Physical symptoms: waking up hungry, swollen / full heavy boobs. Still no nausea, so I suppose that's a good thing? Had a crazy amount of energy yesterday. Stoll waking up in early hours of morning.

Halfway through my first trimester....

I really want to enjoy this, but my anxiety levels keep creeping up, which i know is no good for me and beanie. The Bear is very comforting, tells me to remain positive and take a day at a time....each day is sooooo long haha!

The girls on babycentre are great at cheering everyone up and on...if any of you are reading 'thanks!' xx

Any tips for relaxing would be great if you've got 'em!

Yours ,

somewhat neurotic from London x

Emma's Diary - Mum to Be Pack

This contains a 'spoiler' so if you don't want to know what goodies are in store...please turn away now!

In my bag of goodies were....drum roll.......

5 +1 - GP appointment

I trotted off to my GP this morning. The Bear agreed for me to go solo as it's a quick appointment.

I've already been in touch with my midwifery team and they gave me the impression I was 'logged in the system'.

However GP said I was not :-/

Anyway, I told GP I was confirming my pregnancy. She asked if it was planned and i said yes, so she beamed and offered her congratulations, which was really sweet.

She listened to my heart for a murmur - no murmuring, so that's all good.

GP gave me a copy Emma's Diary , which contains tips, advice and vouchers.
The Bear will love that! You can also collect a free gift

I asked her a few questions: can i dye my hair, relax (perm for Afro hair) my hair  apparently the answer is yes.

Should i have an early scan if i can afford it - "No"

Should I be worried my symptoms have virtually disappeared - "No, they settle down, be glad"

Clearblue digital gave me a reading of 3+ very early on in pregnancy, what does this mean : "Nothing, they're not reliable on conception indicators"

And with that I was given a form to fill in to exempt me from paying for prescriptions during pregnancy and one year afterwards. I handed it in at reception. I'll get a card in the post shortly.


GP also made a point of reminding me not to return to smoking - listed all the reasons why not to smoke and ended with "do it for baby, OK?"




Choose and Book was up the spout, so she'll chase up the midwife referral.
From 24 weeks onwards I'll see Dr D instead of the midwife.

All done in ten minutes.


It's starting to feel real now!